It was my 19th birthday yesterday. It was the most solemn birthday I had. It wasn't as jolly as my previous birthdays. It was somehow gray, to be honest. I was dealing with my personal issues like depression, anxiety, final grade stuff, family drama, suicidal tendencies, poor self-esteem ,and poor body image. Sometimes, I envy other teenagers since almost their lives were seemed to be all in place. They haven't have too much issues to deal with and I think their wits were strong enough to handle it.